For warning: my blog this week is less about school or English and more about things in my life at the moment and how they are affecting school.
So, I've missed a lot of school lately. Like a lot of school. And there's a reason behind that.
I have anxiety.
I've always known that I've had mild anxiety issues, usually concerning social situations or when things change drastically or are just plan new and unknown to me. It's something that I've just kinda ignored.
Unfortunately I can't do that anymore. My anxiety slowly gotten worse and progressed to where it's effecting my ability to go to school.
I like school, I really do. I enjoy my classes and my teachers and the things I learn and do. Even with this though there a lot of mornings (honestly most mornings) in which I wake up and become over Ce by stress, dread, and a sickening feeling on my stomach caused by some unknown anxiety having to do with the idea of leaving my house and going to school. That sucky part of this is that it is momentarily incapacitating. However it oddly disappears as soon as I'm actually at school and I'm usually fine the rest of the day.
It isn't exclusive to school, just any situation with expectations of me, unknowns, or that are stressful. It sucks to say the least and greatly interferes with my life.
Currently I've taken a few steps to dealing with it and they're helping, but it's not solved and is still a major problem.
For right now though, I have anxiety and I'm admitting it.
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